27||Texan ♡Mother ♡Redeemed My life journal 📝
It’s like life doesn’t want to stop punching. I asked my friend to come look at my car and help me fix it. He was going to fix what he could for free and have the rest done by a friend of his. Two hours later, he passed away in the hospital. His girlfriend died at the crash and he was rushed away. I have carried so much guilt for a while but I cannot make it my fault. Something in the air was off but I couldn’t interpret it. I look back and saw the signs and now know what they mean. I’ve known Ant since 2007 and we were close friends. Ant did anything for anyone and was there when you needed advice. He will be another person on my list that I am going to miss forever. His death has reminded me that anyone can be taken at any time. The Bible says that time is like a vapor in the wind. Here one day and gone the next. It’s still so unreal and hard for my mind to accept the facts because I am tired of losing. Tired of being tired. @its_because_im_evil *big bear hugs*
When I see my kids being loving towards others ❤️ I must be a good mom after all.
Helping me take care of Oliver Ray ❤️
I look at this picture and cannot believe it is me sometimes. I’ve been through so much #trauma ; it is unbelievable that I don’t look like what has been done to me. I used to have to wear a sweater to cover my arms. I’ve had to stay home to let my face heal. I was someone’s piggy bank. I was belittled every time I was wrong or made a mistake. I was a slave in my own life and had to obey. The first tactic a #abuser does is make you fall in love with them. Once they have you on that hook, you are stuck because they take everything from you to make you rely on them. I do have to say that through 2 #domesticviolent relationships, I have no fear and I am wiser than the average. I ended up with 4 kids out of it with nothing but God has always always always always and always provided.
You start looking like yourself again when you’re not around #toxicity .
My shirts says “Tell your #dog I said Hi” ❤️ 🐕
She knows she’ll find #love . Only if she wants it.
#Hugs from my Savannah ❤️ 🤗
Good things are coming even when we can’t see it yet. God doesn’t want rules because that’s being religious. He wants you to be his and that’s a relationship.
Happy 2nd Birthday Savannah 🎂 ❤️
My sister chose a Wrangler for her rental and I had to drive it at least once.
And I looked at that light in the middle of the dark. I stared at it until I drifted off into peace.
All 4 of mine in one by a Blue Bonnet field. I’m not sure what each are doing 😂 it never really makes sense to me.
If you go ahead and don’t expect anything then you can’t be disappointed.
Savannah Alene 🤍
More photography practice.